Whenever people ask what I’m good at, I always reply “my ability to question my life.”

Some people would take it as a joke and laugh about it, but I’m dead serious.

I just really like to question my life.

The decisions I’ve made, the things that I could’ve done better, my path moving forward, and all that other nonsense.

It’s calming to me that I know myself a little bit better than yesterday.

I like to know about my emotions and what triggered it, what I’m regretting, my past behaviors and solutions to address them.

I take the time to write things of what I’m feeling and why it felt that way every damn night.

The feeling’s like talking a puff with my imaginary cigar in my imaginary balcony or it’s like drinking expensive aged wine in my imaginary soft sofa.

That’s what it feels like to me. It feels so god damn good.