Valorant sucks.

There I said it.

I just don’t find the same enjoyment my friends experience when I play this stupid game.

It’s not that the game is bad. I just don’t feel like playing the game, you know?

I love watching pros battle against each other, watching the drama unfolding, the hype and things like that.

But, if you asked me if I want to play the game myself or with my friends?

Nah. Fuck that shit.

Playing the game makes me feel like I have aneurysm, and it fucking sucks. But, it’s the only game that my friends usually play. So, I’m forced to play the game.

Honestly, man…

I have never played a competitive game that made me rage so hard to the point that I want to punch through my screen every single time I die.

It’s so fucking corny.

Admittedly, I’m really bad at the game.

I peaked Bronze 2 and never tried again. Yeah, I know. It’s a skill issue, but that’s not the point here.

You see, whenever you’re in a round… All suit up and ready to go. You’ve got the best equipment in the game and all the utilities that contribute to your radiant victory.

And then the round starts… within the first seconds of the round you fucking die.

Bruh, all that preparation. Only to die without doing nothing. That’s so fucking stupid.

I’ve played some fair share of competitive games like League of Legends and Chess, but they never tilted me this much as Valorant does.

Man, let’s be real. How is dying within the first seconds of the game any fun?

Do I have to be masochistic to enjoy the game?

Honestly, y’all are weird.

No, I’m just kidding. I get the appeal. I really do. It feels great to win and clutch rounds, but every joy from that experience eclipse the feeling of uselessness when you die mid-round.

Honestly, I don’t like that feeling. I really don’t. No matter how good my performance is, no matter how much I try to remove it from my head.

Nothing feels worse when you’re not able to do your part. I don’t want to be carried. I want to carry myself.

It’s not that I can’t be carried, but it feels bad to be carried because I too want to share that responsibility.

Let’s be real. It’s not fun being useless. It’s not fun beaten to the ground and not being able to do anything about it.

It’s not fun to have that experience.

It’s such a disappointing experience when you almost get no playing time because of how the busy the day is.

Sometimes, I just want to lay in bed not play the game and relax the normal way.