During high school until now, I was praised for having an amazing body frame.

I was told that I could have an amazing body and I took pride in that.

However, there’s always in me that gnaws my mind every time I look at my body.

At the time of writing this, I’m overweight (obese really) and I have some muscles.

It isn’t the picturesque physique people were hoping to see.

I myself am frustrated at the fact that I cant go beyond potential! I want it to be actual.

I want to have toned muscles and a lean physique. I desire it more than anything else.

But, there’s one thing I desire more. My career ambition.

I know it sounds like an excuse and it does to me, but these priorities are always clashing and it is within my control to mediate and make these goals co-exist.

Many people have done it, so why can’t I? What separates me from them?

That’s a knowledge gap that I need to get over.