At the time of writing this, I am a 23 year old working as a software engineer who has a stable job and a normal life.

It wasn’t always like this. 

Life was more chaotic back then and this was the dream of peace I longed for. 

Now, I want more. 

I’ve always been ambitious.

I’ve always wanted bigger and better but when the reality of my life struck me like a brick being thrown at my face, I settled on having a peaceful life — not dreaming of a grander life of riches and freedom.

At this point in my life, I’m at a standstill. 

I feel complacent, reactive, and feel like time would slowly eat away the dreams I have.

Fuck that! I want to chase my dreams, and I want them now!

That’s why I’m starting Project Arbiter.

Why call it Arbiter? Well, it sounds kinda cool, no? It isn’t? Well, it sounds cool to me so fuck it.

Anyway, I’m going to personally document my failures, realizations, and projects and place them in a directory.

I want to gauge how many times I failed.

The more times I fail, the more I know that I made room for my dreams. If I don’t then, I know that I’ve been complacent and scared like I usually am.

I want to know how I develop my character and principles over the long run.

I’ll make a reminder to myself that I’m responsible and accountable for my life. My decisions and their consequences are my own to handle.

Lastly, I want to create more projects and tell myself that I’m making progress.

I never want to step into the future knowing that I did absolutely nothing when I look back.

That would suffocate me more than anything you can imagine.

Now, I’m not going to make a promise. 

I don’t know if Project Arbiter would be a one-time thing or it would be a life-changing decision.

I don’t give a shit.

I don’t know if I’ll get depressed and never write again.

I don’t know if I’ll get angry and leave these all behind.

I don’t know if I’ll die before I get there.

I don’t care about the future of this project. All I know is I’m going to commit to it with everything I have.

I have nothing but my dreams and soul to lose!