I planned this week with lessons I’ve learned in the past entries—being careful not to overwhelm myself.

I’ve broken my tasks down into actionable items, limited my goals into three, and allotted a lot of time for each.

The ending? A huge disappointment.

The week sped through like a car on a highway, it was fast and I fell asleep the whole ride.

Sure, I’ve made minor victories such as fixing my resume and preparing my algorithm presentation, but it’s nowhere near the goals I’ve set for myself.

I didn’t do Project Landing. I slacked off with Project Frontend. I didn’t properly prepare for Project Letters. 

Everything felt like a mess and I was frustrated the whole week.

My expectations were sky-high, and I naively believed I could crush my goals without a problem.

I really am stupid for thinking life would go smoothly after preparing thoroughly.

In the end, I ended up too busy to start my projects. If I had time, I’d be too tired to start it. What a dilemma!

Not only that, I’ve taken on too many tasks at work. I kept saying yes thinking that if I get these programs right, I’ll have a bigger network for me to use.

While it did increase my network, my attention and focus were scattered to dive deeper into my main priorities.

I truly am a fool.

It’s only this week that I’ve realized how naive I am.

I wanted to connect, have fun, and experiment with my colleagues. So, I went out to casually drink and play badminton taking all my energy for the night.

After arriving home, I try to do my tasks but never do them since I’m already spent.

It’s frustratingly annoying and hard to find fun and productivity balance.

Now, I wonder how I’ll tackle new sets of problems and challenges for next week.