I'm really too fucking scared to take the next step.That's always been the case. It's way too uncomfortable.I was right. I was really that scared kid who didn't want to take initiative at all.Damn, fuck this.I'm all over my head right now.
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can i really give up the life I have right now?
I believe that I need to answer this question before moving forward.I know what I have to do and how to achieve it.But in my mind, I know that I want to be in a comfortable environment.Me going after what I need is not compatible with the way I'm living right now.I have to sacrifice … Continue reading can i really give up the life I have right now?
existential crisis
Too many things to consider and too little time.
just delete me for a moment
I'm too overwhelmed.
I’m losing my god damn mind
I don't know where and how to apply to an internship.What the fuck is this shit?I'm really getting over my head.How can I apply when they need experience?How the hell can I get experience when I can't fucking apply?It's so motherfucking stupid. I just can't.I'm looking at Google and Reddit for answers.I'm building up my … Continue reading I’m losing my god damn mind
paralyzed
I don't know the next step to my life.I've been hesitating to apply to internships and jobs.I'm too afraid.
self-study
Sometimes, studying is enjoyable, fun, and easy — who am I kidding?Studying has always been hard for me.I've grown up to study concepts for exams and not about actual learning.So, every time when I know I'm about to study, my brain immediately thinks of ways to not study.It's annoying me all the time.Well, you can't … Continue reading self-study
productivity
I'm not really a productive person everyday.There are days where I want to relax and take a break.When I take a break, I'm back to full energy when I'm going to work on a project.It's hard for me to work on something so heavy and stressful every single day.I did that once, it lead to … Continue reading productivity
short wins
I'm slowly getting my momentum back.I've been more focused on creating projects and keeping my health in check.I've also kept in touch with my friends.I've been having a great time overall for these past few days.
bathroom mirror self-talk
When you talk with yourself at the mirror in your bathroom, it hits different.Every time I talk to myself at the mirror, it felt more serious.It felt more urgent and important and I don't know why.It really does feel weird.
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