I planned this week with lessons I’ve learned in the past entries—being careful not to overwhelm myself. I’ve broken my tasks down into actionable items, limited my goals into three, and allotted a lot of time for each. The ending? A huge disappointment. The week sped through like a car on a highway, it was … Continue reading Disappoinment
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Lazy Days
This fourth entry of Project Arbiter is definitely one of the entries of all time. It wasn’t because I gave up on the project, nor was it because I tried another new shiny object. Most definitely it isn’t because something outrageous happened. It’s a different story entirely. From the beginning of the week, I was … Continue reading Lazy Days
Project Arbiter
At the time of writing this, I am a 23 year old working as a software engineer who has a stable job and a normal life. It wasn’t always like this. Life was more chaotic back then and this was the dream of peace I longed for. Now, I want more. I’ve always been ambitious. … Continue reading Project Arbiter
Go with the flow, but guide the flow
The biggest thing that I've learned in the past few years is to never force anything that you don't want to do. Go with the flow as they say. Although I do believe that going with whatever nature has in store for us incredibly liberating, it's also the reason why I became complacent, unproductive, and … Continue reading Go with the flow, but guide the flow
Moving on
It's really hard to confess to someone, but it's even more difficult to move on. It's been a very long time since I had feelings for another woman, so it was really hard to move on. Eventually, I learned through a friend of mine to never reminisce. Never look back on the good times, never … Continue reading Moving on
Giving a Flower
I was in the office holding a rose in my hand. I had all the intention to give the person I like flowers ever since the beginning of the week. I stood outside the room where she was eating and I felt my breath hastening. I felt my body shaking and my arms sweating. I … Continue reading Giving a Flower
Just Realized
It wasn't only until the end of January that I began to realize that I could do whatever I wanted as long as I'm not hurting anybody. Let me explain. For the longest time, I've always asked for permission. Do you want this? Do you want that? Want me to get this for you? Do … Continue reading Just Realized
Writing Spree
I don't know what took over me for the past couple of days, but I'm on fire. I've been consistently writing every day, and this is one of my goals. I've always struggled writing outside of my daily journal entries and crash-and-burn sessions, but this time? It feels like I'm not forcing myself to write. … Continue reading Writing Spree
Miscalculated
I thought I was tracking my calories correctly today, but I failed to notice one particular thing. Don't get me wrong, I did my due diligence and looked at nutrition facts at the can itself. But, it didn't cross my mind the word: "Serving Size". It wasn't until the end of the night when I'm … Continue reading Miscalculated
Unlucky and Dumb
Today has been really tragic. My phone screen got destroyed because I misplaced it while I was doing my lifts. The chicken got spoiled because I left it under the sun - forgetting that I took it out in the first place. My thumb hitting the blade of an electric fan. Yeah, the day's going … Continue reading Unlucky and Dumb
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