Kagabi nagising ako sa isang usapan ng kababatang kong kapatid at yung kaibigan niya sa Discord. Hindi ko mapigil sarili ko na makinig habang nagkukunwaring natutulog. Pinaguusapan nila yung perang nakita nila, mga oportunidad na lumayas sa tahanan, at mga paraan para palaguin yung pera nila sa crypto at mga larong MMORPG. Nung naririnig ko … Continue reading Inggit
frustration
The Struggle, The Result
In the year 2014, I arrived at school with bloodshot eyes and a heavy heart. I couldn’t get a wink of sleep last night. I spent my time rolling around my bed and sitting by my desk, back and forth, the whole entire night. Yesterday morning, my homeroom advisor told us he would be announcing … Continue reading The Struggle, The Result
my laptop broke today.
I accidentally spilled water on the keyboard yesterday. It's not even a big amount. It's literally just a drop of water. I tried drying it off with a paper towel and I thought it was over and was okay. After coming back from the kitchen, I see my laptop spasming pressing all kinds of keys … Continue reading my laptop broke today.
Contribution
I want to contribute to an open-source project, but I don’t where to. GitHub is a hubbub of projects that are public. That’s where the dilemma starts. I don’t even know where to begin. When I searched for a repository related to my language, Java, there aren’t any. There are some, but they are waaay … Continue reading Contribution
What am I doing?
I’m 20. I haven’t done anything significant in my life. I’ve been playing around with shit. Yet, I’m not accomplishing anything. It’s so frustrating. It’s hard, you know? Comparing yourself to ones younger than you and one with the same age. They’ve accomplished so much. Look at me. I’m writing away my insecurities and frustrations … Continue reading What am I doing?
The frustration of wanting something
I want to leave my house in the next three years. However, I haven’t done anything yet. I don’t have a job, nor do I know how and where to get one. It’s kind of sucky to be honest. I know how to cook and care for myself, but I can’t leave because I don’t … Continue reading The frustration of wanting something
Self-doubts
Have you ever doubted your process? Thinking that it wouldn’t be worth it? Well, I have and it sucks. It’s that taunting voice that paralyzes you from doing something with its one-two punch of making you down then making you feel guilty for not doing something. It’s a harsh combo and it’s very effective.
Wanting to grow up to be independent.
I'm in this portion of my life that I want to get a job and get the fuck away from this place. To give context, I'm not a rich person nor I am a poor one. I'm in between. However, life fucks you up and pushes you around. So we became poor. Our family became … Continue reading Wanting to grow up to be independent.
i’m batshit broken
One Saturday night, I was laying down on the streets of the neighborhood that I was living in. I don’t know how I got there but I do know that I felt like shit. I felt terrible. My whole body was in pain, my emotions were a mess, and I was having an existential crisis … Continue reading i’m batshit broken
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